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    The Tide Turns

    As I sit down to write this, it is exactly one month since I was told I have cancer.  That day stands ingrained in my brain, with the days following feeling like I was riding turbulent ocean currents.  Over and over again I felt bombarded with waves of strong emotions and increasing fears.   Today, the tides of water move in a different direction.  I had a most interesting conversation with my oncologist.  The pathology from my recent surgery found absolutely no cancer in what was removed.  Her explanation is, that whatever abnormal cells existed were removed in the two biopsies I had. I am still in shock.  For months…

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    Backpack Days

    I love to meet my students at the door each morning.  There are the usual morning tussles as they get their gear hung up and search their backpacks for needed items.  Those backpacks are an essential tool between home and school as notes and materials are passed back and forth between places.  It always amazes me what children think necessary to bring to school.  Their backpacks produce some surprising treasures some days. My children always used backpacks as well.  They were a handy catchall for all things school and helped in keeping my kids organized.  Most of the time, my children kept their packs relatively clean and orderly.   Still,…

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    Peace

    Waiting is a challenging thing.  It is one thing to await a special event; it is quite the opposite process when time lingers before a challenging task or circumstance. The morning of my cancer surgery I struggle with what to do with my time.  I am not thrilled with my afternoon surgery appointment because I know that my mind will be racing in circles all morning, anticipating the events to come.  Trying to ignore my hunger pangs, as I hadn’t been allowed to eat for hours, I begin mindlessly surfing the internet to bide the time. Moments before I need to start the long drive to the hospital, an email…

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    What Are You Looking For?

    What really matters to you?  What makes you happy?  When do you feel totally satisfied?  What things turn your life around? The world wants us to focus on questions like these.  If you only do this or only have that, then you will find true satisfaction in life.  You have to find your own destiny.  It’s up to you to make things happen in your life and to help yourself feel good.   These statements, however, are all fallacies in God’s eyes.  It is not up to us to determine what is best, only God knows what that truly is.  True wholeness and satisfaction are a gift from Him. Yet…

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    The “In” Crowd

    Making connections – it is usually considered the way to success.  We are told to get out there and find ways to meet people who are influential in our chosen profession, sport, or interest.  Get to know them, find out what makes them tick, read what they read, attend events they attend – these are all strategies supposedly to lead to the goal we desire.   Most really successful people are able to use their connections to their own advantage.  This “in” opens up doors to new opportunities and avenues for growth.   There are many days when I would like to have that magical “in” – that special connection…

  • Taking Flight

    What’s your typical reaction when you see a storm coming?  Do you dance around in the midst of the hailstones or do you run for cover?  Do you relish in getting soaked from the rain or do you find the nearest dry shelter?  Most of us want to seek some kind of protection from stormy outbreaks.  We desire a reprieve from any adverse conditions rather than search them out.  Avoiding the stresses of turbulent events is typically high on our list.  The bird kingdom is no different.  When a storm approaches, all but one breed of bird goes to find shelter.  Who is the anomaly?  It is the eagle.  While…

  • Who’s Driving Anyway?

    A few years ago there was moving Christian song called “Jesus Take the Wheel”.  It is a strong reminder of how we need to let God take control in our lives and how we cannot manage on our own.  I find the words in the chorus particularly meaningful: “Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can’t do this on my own I’m letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I’m on Jesus take the wheel” I know I have considerable challenges with wanting to take control of my life myself.  I want to manage things on my own terms and…